i know everything now.
thanks for everything.
♥ 10:23 PM
hey guys! actaully, i jst wanna say tht i wont be using my hp anymore.
im giving it bck to my friend. no more hp now.
idk how to cntct my friends and especially, lolli.
jst now i called her a few times, bt nvr pick up.
thot i could get to talk to her, bt tk tercapai.
hehs. idk la. how are you going to msg me now?
how are we going to talk with each other?
how are we going to mitt each other?
hais! idk! idk! idk!
nvm la. hope you'll find me. i'll be sad if you dont.
apape tkmo picet kay. hp dah tkde. grr.
byebye ppl.
im missin her seiy.
not sure bout her.
ppl, stop talking bout her okay.
if you dont like her, then get lost.
get a life kay ppl? pfft!
Labels: they just want us to get separated.
♥ 4:34 PM
words wont hold bck my love.
if you think im gonna believe you guys, then think again okay?
hah! your words arent enuf to prove me wrong.
want me to leave her? oh my. you must have got the wrong guy.
gaah! get a life la kay?!
dont be such a busybody.
iloveher and thts final.
so long suckers!
Labels: i wont trust what they say bie.
♥ 12:45 AM
heyhey ppl! gaah! just now i went to my nenek house, break fast over there with all my cousins. hehs. it was fun la.
i ate alot siaa! oh my. bt lolli asked me to eat more. haiyo.
want to eat until how seiy? nnt perot i meletop, baru tawu. hehe.
currently msging lolli, we talk things out and everything is fine now.
really glad tht i get to msg her. hehs.
imissher la siaa! so long nvr mitt ald.
can go crazy! pfft!
bt nvm, i'll be patient. andand im going to change my attitude ald.
to be a better one for her. gaah!
tmr wont be werkin cos no job for tmr. so i can lepak! yay!
andand, tmr teachers' day siaa. lazy uh want to go bck school. malas tau tk?!
bt see how la kay. my fren all ask me to go. we'll see bout it okay? hehs.
kay la. till here ald.
apape text uh. tknk sudah! byebye!
imissyou beybie! hees.
Labels: things become better. iloveyou bie.
♥ 12:23 AM
just now went to geylang with my fam. carik baju, bt sume mcm samer aje. haha.
atlast tk beli seiy. penat tau tk? dah la ramai! haiyo.
then met ricko, jlnjln, then go mitt my lepak frens. hehs.
panas nk mampos siaa! tk bole angs!! pfft!
To Lolli Bambam,
why isit hard for you to trust me? you always trust other ppl's sayings.
even when im not in the wrong, you tend to trust other ppl.
where's the trust we brought up together? huh?
hais. its not tht i cntct other girls or what siaa.
then you cntct him? and those pics?
i tk saket hati ke bie?
even after all tht, i try my best to trust you siaa.
bt still, you didnt keep to your words.
you said you wont cntct him anymore?
what happened to tht? hmm.
i know im a nobody to you.
i aint your BF seiy. anytime you can go with whoever you want.
even when ppl tell me things about you, i just ignore them.
cause i only trust what i see and not what i hear.
i just dont want you do do things behind me.
bt lolli, we're like drifting apart. do you realise it?
you always nvr reply my msg. my calls pon tk angkat.
if you're busy, then tell me. atleast i know right?
haiyo. you said we're doing fine now, what for be in a relationship.
bt it scares me you know. afraid you might go with another.
nk jumpe je dah susah seiy.
yea, im disappointed, bt what can i do?
i understand your situation.
bt rmbr what you did to me? thts why im afriad tht it might happen again.
hais. beybie, beybie.
you said to me, "lets make our love grow stronger."
prove it to me okay bie? its your turn to show it now.
if you really want to go with him, then tell me frankly.
i'll do nothing bt to be happii for you.
i miss you seiy. dont you know tht?
hais!
Labels: trust what you see than what you hear.
♥ 4:45 AM
it doesnt matter what ppl are gonna say.
if my love is strong, so will we be.
ppl cant change the love tht we bond.
ppl are just jealous cause we lasted longer than they think.
"lets make our love stronger.""one by one, step by step, fallin in love all over again."150708 strong like before.
even though we're not attchd.
we dont need to be in a relationship to love each other.
Labels: pieces by pieces. you picked them up.
♥ 8:57 PM
just now went to geylang with ricko. then met dart and as at there.
then i called lolli, she said she's going home ald. asked her she at where,
skali she was at the bustop opposite the road!
baru nk gy sane, skali bus pulak sebok. she took tht bus and went home.
aiyo! missed tht one and only chance siaa!! shit man! pfft!
really miss her siaa! oh my.
then everything became boring.
her pp8 low, mine also the same. urgh!!
bt tmr lolli say nk mitt!! yay!
hopefully tmr jady kay bie. i really want to mitt you la!! grr.
tht BOY, is starting to be more rebellious. he asked me to mitt him.
sape nk gy layan siaa. lolli aku punyer pe!
buto sama lu uh!
after one rivalry, comes another. fcuk siaa!
let us be happii can anot?! jgn nk kacau hubungan org la sial!
to lolli, you said you wanted to change the name? i tenok tk tukar pon?
hais. kater dah tk cntct lagy? tapy kt msn cntct jgak. ape ni?
dont just say, bt prove it okay. hais!
Labels: getting on my nerves. fuck la.
♥ 2:16 AM
too bad we didnt get to go out together today.
when we always wanted to mitt, something always spoils the plan.
idk when else i will be able to mitt her again.its so difficult siaa. sometimes, we dont even get to mitt for one month.
rabak kann? hais. what to do? she's always busy la.
nxt time aje la kay bie.
now, SOMEBODY is trying to start a fight with me.
wtf?! he wants lolli too. hmph!
ppl just cant see the both of us happii la.
nk carik sendiri uh sial! aku punyer bkn kau punyer!
klw kau bole dpt dier dari aku, kau bgos uh kay.
today wont be going anywhere la. plan dah tk jadi nk gy mane lagy siaa?
haiya. tkpela. im being patient okay bie.
mitt me whenever you can la. imissyou siaa!
obstacles, obstacles. please stop cuming!
♥ 5:14 PM
i think tmr wont be going out. msg mama ald.
hais. nk jumpe, tapy slalu tk jady.
haiya. tkpela. i just dont want you to get scolded.
thts all. if ppl dont let to go out then nvm la. hehs.
imissyou seiy. pfft!
♥ 3:55 AM
yest, went to geylang. belom sempat smpi geylang, dah buke. luckily lolli told me. klw tk, tk tau. haha. atas motor jugak kte buke. tapy stakat minom air je la.
vehicles yest was very rude siaa. change lane with no signal, little bit more, aky and me dah tkde kt sini agaknyer. haiyo. bt aky is a GOOD rider. so no worries. hehs. at geylang, tk byk org la. mcm biase, matrep conferm adr. hahah. we went home arnd 10+.
i went to mitt ricko and my other bros arnd ricko's house. we lpklpk, skali hujan LEBAT!! haiyo. dont know how to go home. it was effing cold. sume dah mengigil siaa. hahaha. very funny.then arnd 4.30, we went home. bt it was still raining heavily.haha. maen hujan uh ape lagy kann. best la. tapy sejuk!! gee.
lolli missed called me yest. terperanjat seiy. then i called bck. she said she wanted to sleep ald. and so yea, we said "our" words. hees. then i called lolli again, just to say tht imissher. haiya. i really do miss her la. its been so long since we've met each other. last was 15august2009. lamer kann? so to those out there, dont complain if you dont get to mitt your loved ones for only one day.now you may be happii, bt later is unknown, btol tk lolli? hehe. tmr, we plan to go out. i must msg mama to ask for permission. hehs. hopefully mama allow eik bie.
kay la. chaochao.lacko penat la.
byebye. Labels: tmr must mitt kay bie. imy tawuk.
♥ 1:57 PM
today, im going out with my old lepak friends. ride motor go geylang. hehs.
dorg yg ajak, so i go aje la. gee.
i told baby ald tht im going out. must tell her tau.
klw tk bilang nnt dier marah, and you dont wanna see her get angry. seraaam!!
anw, baby still havent wake up seiy. tkde msg pon dari dier. haiya.
ngantok nahh bby i sorg ni? huh? haiyo. i know your stomach cramp, so tk kesah la you msg i ke tk. as long as you got enuf rest, im happii enuf. ((:
anw, im missin someone siaa! so long nvr mitt her. last was at kk at potong pasir.
haiya. its hard to mitt her seiy. bt no matter what our love is still standing strong right baby? gaah! iloveyou la! msg me la bie.
i gtg now. apape picet, tknk sudah!
byebye.
Labels: candiie beybie. imissyou la.
♥ 5:04 PM
im sorry bby. i shouldnt have asked you tht question. cause i know your answer ald. hais.really sorry okay. bt maybe youre right la.we're doin fine right now. andand i dont want anything to happen anymore.bt you should know how scared am i to lose you.i dont wanna lose you anymore bby. i just cant bear to see you go.you know i love you beybie.i know bie. you loved him before right?
hrmm. i hope, you mean what you said to me.
i just love you bie. dont leave me.
Labels: love doesnt need to be together.
♥ 4:06 AM
you made me cried,
and you cheered me up.
i think i miss you,
cause i just cant stop thinkin of you.
im always yours,
to keep in your heart.
obstacles and hardship,
wont EVER make us part.
iloveyou lolli.
dont leave me anymore.
your love is always in my heart,
thinkin when can we restart.
Labels: im always yours sweetheart.
♥ 3:30 AM
Today im happy! get to msg lolli. andand even im chattin with her right now.
Miss her so much la siaa!! hopefully wednesday jady kay bie.
cant wait. gee.
puase was okay la. woke up late so tkya nk tunggu buke lamer sgt.
haha. i ate macaroni. kenyang gylerr! mcm nk meletop seiy perot!
haiyo.
just now went yewtee watch soccer with my bros.
MAN U won the game. haiya. bt great fight there WIGAN.
tady ricko mcm gylerr siaa. i laughed with him smpi badan sume saket. hehe.
terbiat siaa. gaah! kay la.
i wanna chat with my BEYBIE!!
apape picet.
tknk sudah!
byebye.
Labels: you make me smile today baby. iloveyou.
♥ 2:20 AM
today, as per normal, went to werk. as and farid didnt paitao me.
hehs. good for you guys la. atleast dpt duit pe.
andand today i got my pay.
then i got to know baby lost her money AGAIN!
haiyo! baby so CARELESS!
mane bole gytu? ape la bby ni.
then i transfered money to baby. hehs.
felt happii today. dont know why.
i think, she made my day.
gee. bt, she always does.
cant say anything. i do love her alot.
gaah!
andand, to tht motherfucker, shut your mouth before ppl shut you up.
jgn smpi satu hari, kau kene biken psl mulot cibai kau.
nk busok2kann namer pompan aku, pikir 2kali okay!
FUCK YOU SHASHA!!
Labels: iloveyou no matter how much you hurt me.
♥ 2:10 AM
tmr, im werking. as and farid also. haiyo. im scared they paitao me uh.
pfft! if they paitao, then there wont be anymore werk for them. hah!
tmr wont be going anywhere. adr meeting bt mls nk gy.
tenok uh mcm mane kay. haha!
jst now lepak with my friends. then i went home. so bored.
and im sleepy. tmr must wake up early. aiya!
kay la. i wanna sleep.
apape picet, tknk sudah!
byebye!
Labels: imissyou babygirl.
♥ 1:41 AM
No mood.
wont be going home today.
tmr wont be going anywhere la.
too lazy to go out.
today, didnt get to mitt her.
pfft!
nvm, nvm, nvm. . .
♥ 4:48 PM
im realli glad to see my frens happii with their loved ones.
to hear them goin out with each other, spending time.
whoah, very fun.
bt actualli, im jealous. hehs.
not bcos of their GFs or BFs. bt bcos they get to spend alot of time and i dont.
hrmm. its realli sad.
we dont get to mitt each other always.
my frens always told me tht they'll be mittin their GFs.
haiyo. tkpela. . .
let them be.
im happii when my frens are happii. . .
and im happii with my lolli. . .
Labels: i just miss the old times with you.
♥ 2:22 PM
you came bck. i trust you. and i expect you not to disappoint me again okay?
what you want, i can give. i jst want you to know your limits.
you say you love me, so prove it okay? i wanna see the old lolli again here with me.
i told you, i wont go anywhere without you. and i mean it.
i just want you to be faithful this time round.
okay baby?
iloveyou candiie girl :D
Labels: faith and trust. i just want tht.
♥ 2:10 AM
hey ppl, sorry eik tk update. busy werking la. somemore, i jst came home. klw tk slalu tido rumah kawan. hehs. tmr not werking. somebody say wanna mitt me. so i canceled my job for tmr. sanggop tau. haha. im tired, sleepy, bored la.
kay la. i wanna sleep.
pape picet. tknk sudah!
byebye.
Labels: imissyou candiie girl.
♥ 1:55 AM
now you feel what i feel. the fear of losing someone tht you love so much. hmm.
if you think im moving on, then im sorry lolli, you got the wrong lacko.
if you think im leaving, then im not the lacko tht you know 13mths ago.
you think im lying? i'll prove it to you okay.
im still stayin. i wont go.
leaving you, will not an option in my life.
Labels: i love you. bt do you?
♥ 6:14 AM
i can see, things are starting to change between us.
youre not like before.
you dont entertain me like last time.
we're drifting apart each day.
you trying to run from me.
youre giving me hope.
bt at the same time, youre hoping for me to give up.
youre showing everything to me now.
it all make sense to me.
youre lazy to entertain me ald.
youre tired with me.
dreams wont come true.
tears will keep rolling down.
now youre missin him, in times to come, youre goin to love him.
youre love towards me is fading.
if sumthing occurs, dont blame me.
i just want to see you happii.
i wont play this game with you.
i just dont want to get myself disappointed again.
hope youre happii with what you want.
hope youre happii with what youve done.
Labels: hopes and dreams are shattered.
♥ 11:57 AM
I know who "aheehh" is.
you dont have to hide it from me.
if you wanna go with him, tell me.
i'll let you go.
how should i trust you if you keep doing this to me?
hais. think bout it okay.
change your attitude.
if you wont, then. . .
just dont abuse my trust.
Labels: only have one in heart. not two
♥ 4:32 AM
you find him more than you find me.
when never msg you, you'll do anything to find him.
bt if i nvr msg you, you wont find me. hmm.
its shows sumthing ald.
nvm la.
i know where i stand now.
im realising it. pfft!
do whats right for you.
Labels: love with your heart not your words
♥ 3:25 PM
hey guys, today is lolli and lacko punyer 13monthsary! haha. even we're not a couple, our love keeps going on. very long tau dah bertahan. so many obstacles la. haiyo. im gonna love My Candiie Girl always!! weehuu!! today, gonna go watch her performance at potong pasir. jaoh siak! bt sayang pehh psl, im still going. hees. apape picet kay. byebye.
Labels: Candiie Girl, i love you
♥ 3:00 PM
hey guys, today im werking again. weehuu!! duit masok lagy! yay! haha. imiss werking la. penat pon tk kesah. aslkann gaji ada sudah. hehs. today i hope lolli will msg me la. haiyo. 3days, no msg. so lonely la. grr. must be patient lacko. andand lolli, do know tht i miss you so much!!
apape picet kay. nk sleep.
byebye.
Labels: miss my candiie girl.
♥ 4:38 AM
hey ppl. just now, i went out alone. went to town mcm bdk bodoh seiy. no friend. haiyo.if not, i was suppose to go out with lolli. then gadoh, sumore she having high fever. so i told her friend to just let her rest aje. hmm. lolli, i hope you're not mad at me anymore. you didnt msg me one whole day. hais! sedih seiy. anw, makesure you rest alot okay? must eat la, dont let your stomach empty. you dah la senang gastric. haiya. must eat kay b_ b_? hmm. i hope you'll msg me today. realli hope so. ltr, im going interview keje kt sentosa. thot of mitting lolli bt she doesnt seems to be replying my msgs la. i guess you're still mad at me.kay la. nk sleep. apape picet.byebye. im_ _ _you baby! )):Labels: just waiting for your msg.
♥ 4:23 AM
Forgive me for shouting at you.
i was just angry.
i cant take it.
i want you bck.
grant my wish for the last time.
♥ 6:45 AM
you're leaving
im staying
you're running
im waiting
life wont be complete without you here with me. guiding me thru every single thing tht came to test my life. you're the one who made me stay and waited for you. 11mths of waiting and still im waiting. it doesnt matter what ppl are going to say to me, all im gonna do is to wait.
now you're leaving, im staying here. hoping you would come bck to me. all i wanted was to be happii like before. bt ppl kept interfering. it hurts, bt i held on to my promises. your love was the strength to have made me stayed and wait.
i didnt mean what i said to you yest. im just scared. thts all. like how you were when i was with other girls. now im not, bt you are. when is the day tht i'll be happii with you? when? i dont want you to leave. im sorry for yelling at you thru the phone. im truely sorry. even if you really go, my love wont be leaving my heart.
walau kau pergi
akan ku cari
tidak akan aku
memungkiri janji
setiap hari akan ku nanti
dirimu itu akan kembali.
Labels: will you still be my candiie girl?
♥ 4:29 AM
hey ppl! yest, i played kompang. ferst went to toa payoh then go cck. haha. ngantok seiy. didnt have enuf sleep seiy. cibai btol!
played kompang, then went to bdk anatomy punyer wedding, kecyk. org pegy majlis dudok sane mkn sume. i went there, jumpe members then went inside the bus and sleep.
hahaha!! penat la. mls nk layan orgorg kt sane. hees.
today was tiring la. haiyo. veryvery sleepy.
nothing much happened yest. so ya. thts all.
i wanna sleep now.
pape picet.
andand, Happy Bdae Singapore!! yay!
byebye ((:
Labels: i hate seeing tht pic. im still disappointed. just not showing it.
♥ 2:32 AM
baby, how are you gonna assure me tht this wont happen again?
assure me tht you wont cntct him anymore?
assure me tht you wont mitt him anymore?
how will i trust you?
no wonder you didnt want to mitt me yest. hais.
why must you do this seiy. now im hurt.
its hard for me to accept the fact tht you and him are nothing when there are pics of the both of you? heart painpain seiy.
how? how? how? haiyo.
i thot we're gonna be happii. bt then. . .
pfft!! idk what to say ald lolli. i really dont know.
help me trust you once again.
show me you meant what you said to me.
give me the strength to stand once more.
give me the love tht you describe to me.
show me the way to my happiiness with you.
give me the old candiie girl i know back.
♥ 1:01 AM
you tore my heart into pieces once again. and all you said was sorry.
i adr buat gytu pt you pe? huh?! and you even lied to me. you said you were meeing ayu. bt you also met him. wtf?! im heart broken siaa! im speechless! idk what to say, idk what to do. im not gonna do anything la. your life what. your choice. who am i siaa?! you asked me to forget the past. bt now, the present is going to haunt me. i wont forget this. i cant. it hurts so badly. im fcuking hurt by your doings. if your love for me was true, you would think bout me. bt you didnt. you did it bcos you think bout the two FUCKING ppl! argh!! fcuk la!! i was sincere bt you wasnt. you didnt think bout our love.
Labels: lacko is hurt. real badly.
♥ 11:01 PM
hey ppl. i've been werking for the whole week. update blog pon tk slalu la. penat la. bt today im getting my pay! yay! bt i want to save for monday. goin out with lolli. hees. cant wait la. haha. anw, im happii yest. msg with lolli.
she said, "lets fcuk the past aye bie? you are the reason im stayin strong sweetheart :D my monkeyboy, your candiie girl".im so happii la. see the reason why iloveher so much?
its not easy okay. we went thru ALOT! haiyo.
bt now, everything is like before. hehe.
kay la. nk go werk.
apape picet kay? ((:
byebye.
love my candiie girl muchmuch! :D
Labels: my candiie., your monkey
♥ 5:37 AM
hey, today im werking again. 4days straight. haiya. penat bt fun la. wee! yest got tips again. bt havent received yet. cant wait. friday get pay! woohuu!!
yest, talked to lolli otp, talktalk. miss her voice siaa. now tht you're mine, i aint gonna let you down. fuck those ppl who told you stories bout me la. think bout it, if i were to do those things to you, what for i waited for you kann b? ape la. those ppl are just bitches la. i know its a girl. hah!
anw, im going to werk now.
apape picet!
byebye.
Labels: iloveyou baby
♥ 6:11 AM
baby, its up to you who to trust. if you trust them. then i know its over for me. there wont be another chance for me. right? hmm. you told me before, no more making you disappointed. and i didnt. i realli didnt do anything tht will make you feel upset bout me. im trying my best here to get you bck, bt everytime i try, ppl will always make stories bout me. see, thts why i felt as if im gonna lose sumthing today. and this happened. fuck tht person la! i know you're not gonna trust me anymore. you like to listen and trust what ppl say bout me. then how will our love succeed siaa? how can you love when you dont trust? i didnt do anything wrong siaa. bt nvm la, its not my decision. its yours. you determine everything. i put it in your hands. you trust them, then i'll no longer be "Lolli'sMonkeyBoy" if you think they're telling the truth, its gonna be up to you. think bout it. if i were to do what tht fucking person told you, then i'll go. even if i say i didnt do anything, my words wont even be trusted. i bet you wont be msging me tmr. you said you wanna tell me right? better mean what you say.
Labels: no choice. she dont have the trust in me.
♥ 12:52 AM
someone made a story bout me. and tht fucking person told lolli. and now lolli's upset.
wtf did i do siaa?! eh, klw tk suke tengok org bahagia, simpan perasaan dlm diri la! tk perlu uh nk kacau org pehh hubungan.
BUTO sama lu org uh!!
prangai mcm SIAL!!
pikir klakar pe?!
FUCK YOU uh!!
ppl like you, dont deserve to have a relationship la.
just be alone till you die!
if you dont like to see me and lolli happii, come to me uh, we settle.
amcm? swee pe!
kau nk maen, aku bole bwk kau maen.
kte tengok uh sape menang.
BUTO sama lu org yg buat cite psl aku!
busokkann namer org?!
namer kau nnt aku buat busok.
mati dgn lu la.
aku tk heran la.
Labels: if you trust tht person, then nvm. i know you dont trust me.
♥ 12:43 AM
i've been werking for two days now. and tmr im werking again.
walao! so tired! cannot tahan liao!
haiya. bt what to do? im not schling ald. so must werk la.
bt just now werk was great! we finished early, then get $20 tips from the client somemore.
we must have done a great job. hahaha!
after finish werk, we all go commonwealth eat ice kachang. haha.
sedap seiy. bt tk manis. pfft!
then our driver sent us to jurong east.
then take train bck to yew tee.
played soccer at arnd 8pm.
play also like got no semangat. haiyo.
dah penat gylerr la.
today, i feel so different. i feel as if im gonna lose sumthing precious. idk why. please la. dont let it happen. i dont wanna suffer anymore. im happii ald. im happii to have gotten what i want.
just dont take it away. urgh!! im realli tired la. cnt tahan. must sleep early today. tmr werk again. and must wake up early. cos i mitting my another werkpal at clementi. grr.
kay la. apape picet kay.
andand, imiss MY Lolli Bambam!!
i wanna mitt her soon la!! ):
Labels: dont take anything away from me. please. iloveher.
♥ 11:28 PM
heyhey! i werking again today. make it short okay.
yest, werk mcm nk mampos! klw tk habis siang, then kene pegy rescue tmpt laen. haiya. besar gylerr pe rumah dier? abeh tinggal 4org aje? tc siol!!
hmm.
and to my baby, im sorry. i know i irritate you. bt i just feel lonely. im sorry.
do eat your medicine. just eat abit even if you hate it.
you klw saket rabak seiy. haiyo. must eat medicine okay sweetheart?
get well soon. hope you didnt mean what you said to me yest.
im sorry.
Labels: i just need you in my presence.
♥ 6:24 AM
im getting ready going to werk. sempat eik? haha. standard uh. bangon siang la. cannot sleep actually. haiyo.
one whole day felt like vomiting. my throat like so, dont know how to say la. haha.
today werk hopefully rilek uh. malas uh nk buat keje bykbyk. hehs.
tapy nk crk duit kann? ape nk buat? pfft!
my health? ala, who cares la kann? no one. yea, no one.
pui uh. im fine la. even if sumthing happens pon. . .
tk tau la.
lets just say, GO TO HELL.
yea! hmph!!
kay la. nk go werk.
bye ppl.
lacko's going now (:
Labels: lazy to entertain? hehs. thanks
♥ 6:09 AM
cannot tahan! vomit so much!
just now at 6am, i woke up and ran to the toilet. i vomited blood. everything was red and i was scared. i msg her bt she didnt reply. seram seiy. i just want her to be with me always. hais. how i wish we were near to each other. hmm.vomitvomit then got some food inside my mouth. haha. tk tau uh ape makanan. gaah! geli siaa. i vomit alot seiy. hmm.
when can you not be afarid of him?
i can see tht he still loves you. and i can see tht you're still afraid of him seiy. mcm, you cnt text me when he's dere. why seiy? you said you love me bt then why our love must like this. i dont want like this. im sad seiy. better off you go with him right if you're afraid he might scold you if you text me? hais.when will be the day tht you'll pull up your courage and confront him? huh baby?can we have a happii and free love? it hurts to see him text you "iloveyou la, imissyou la." heart painpain tau. hmm. think bout it kay baby. if you realli love me, you're gonna do sumthing bout this. if not then, idk what to say ald.
Labels: you're still scared. i know.
♥ 2:59 PM
heyhey, just now afternoon went to bugis with my frens. then we went to town, lpk kt paragon the coffee bean. all went to the toilet and we went crazy. took some pics. haha! laugh like hell siaa! will upload it soon la kay. then we went to boat quay, lepaklepak. then baby was upset with me. she asked how many did i smoke and told me to tell her honestly. i said i smoke 4sticks today. and it was true. bt baby was still disappointed with me. dont you know baby its hard for me to smoke 4sticks for one day. its realli hard tau. its the best i can do. bt i know, i've let you down. even when i tell the truth, you're still not happii with it. then are you telling me tht i should lie to you? hais. i hope you'll understand me. hmm. baby was upset till she didnt msg me. afta i reach yewtee, i msg her and she replied. thank god! haiyo. dont do tht anymore will you? it scares me you know. hmm. then we msgmsg. bt now, no more _ _ _ _ for me. hmm. she told me everything. and i told her everything. i know you're scared bt what happened to your frens out there, it doesnt mean tht i'll do the same thing right b? i know, you still dont trust me. when i asked you whether you still trust me or not, you didnt reply. cnt be you're ald asleep seiy. hmm. conferm you dont want to reply cos maybe you dont know what to say right bie? haiyo.
can i have _ _ _ _ for the last time?
you know i love you dont you?
Labels: you know i wont do such things to you. bt you just dont trust me baby.
♥ 4:35 AM
baby,
i promise, i wont leave you.
why would i when i love you so much?
im sorry for scolding you today.
you shouldnt have done what you did.
i know you care, bt all of it have place and time.
this is the time for me to spend time with you.
idk how am i suppose to spend time with my family.
i forgot how.
i've been giving them alot of problems.
haiyo. what kind of son am i?
i just wanna be with you baby.
even though its gonna be a short one.
i wont regret.
not even abit.
it'll be my best.
i just want you in my arms.
just like last time.
hees.
best kann dulu kiter mataer?
haha.
i just love you alot bie!
im missin you.
bt how am i gonna mitt you when you're always busy seiy?
haiya.
sedih tau.
i just want to spend time with you la.
((:
♥ 2:44 PM
sorry ppl, this gonna be my last post. yea, just like tht. maybe my life will end just like this also. with nothing to say. hmm. who cares right? no one does. im sick and tired of holding on. the pain wont ease even though i eat all kinds of medicine. no use kann? haha. nvm. let me hold on till it realli overcomes my strength. be strong Muhd Noah. haha.
bt baby is just too scared. hais. how i wish she didnt read my blog. now she's worried. and afraid she might lose me. i wont leave you la bie. im strong seiy. your bby lacko strong seiy. tk ingat ke? if i can go thru thick and thin, i can take this easily la. hah. no problemo for lacko. yeayea! just bear in mind tht i'll always be loving you Nur Hidayah! you're gonna be MY ONE and ONLY! ((:
Labels: you cant run away. just accept it.
♥ 2:23 PM
heyhey! im bck talking again. haha. yest, i went to my uncle angkat's hse. slept there then got tht "thing". haiyo. seram seiy. it kept disturbing us. ketokketok tinkap la. maen air la. walao! klakar pe ckp dgn dorg? tetan btol! abeh tido sane pon tk tenteram seiy. haiya. sebok aje, org nk tido pon nk kacau. bodoh! hahaha!
today, i wanna go out. maybe going bugis wif my frens. bt klw klua pon tk tau mane nk pegy seiy. taik! apape picet la. i wanna sleep.
byebye.
iloveyou lolli!
♥ 10:18 AM
